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whisper was my beloved chihuahua he was only 6 months and on 09/10/11 i had him put to sleep. if i had it to do all over again i would not. on july 3 this year he started to stagger and lose his balance in just a few days he could not walk no matter how hard he tried. numerous trips to vets and very many prayers later no one could figure out his problem. i would take him out and hold him up and balanced him so he could take a few steps and go potty. he never would use it in the house and he loved outside. i also fed him out of my hand and water with a dropper. for 2 months i did this and then he started having small strokes and eventually pain. this small precious gift from God taught me about unconditional pure love and complete trust. he was, is, and always will be my heart. i feel more guilt than ever. the look in his eyes was like momma gonna fix me and take me home and as the vet started that look changed like momma what are you doing to me all i did was love you and trust you. i brought his little body home and buried him right outside where i talk to him a lot. i have a huge hole in my heart and a lump in my throat and i cry constantly. i miss whisper and love him so much it hurts to even think of one second without him. please forgive me my precious baby and know that i love you and i hope you are playing and running again with bandit and mawmaw and that i see you again someday. mommas baby with his shiney white coat, crooked little ears, precious little tongue that always stuck out ever so slightly and the cold nose that snuggled under mommas chin. i loveyou precious little one please forgive me. all mommas love and heart forever and always

I just lost my beloved cat Lila to a coyote attack. She was the prettiest little girl, only 4 years old, loved playing with her brother (dog) Toby and spooning when they slept together. We both miss her so much and i can't stop crying. I moved out of my home to my mothers because i cant stand to see the murder scene across the street and the house is so empty without my furbaby girl. When she didnt come in last night we kept calling her and propped the doors open in case she came in but she never did. My brother and I came across the most horrific scene of my life, a tuft of her fur, all of her intestines and brain and part of her tail. I feel like i'm in a nightmare but can't wake up and i can't get that horrofic image out of my brain. I miss her so much and i'm heartbroken, so very sad. I feel like the life has been sucked right out of me. Can anyone help me know what to do? Animal Control had no current officer and nobody will take care of the coyote which is bold and hunts in our neighborhood during daylight. How can i live there again and have to walk by that murder scene spot every day with my dog? please help. Nancy

I know this may sound trite...but at the loss of my best most loyal and beloved friends...I keep saying over and over that NO ONE would have cared for them as well as I DID...and whether they lived a long life or illness took them younger....I was the best 'mom'...and we loved each other.
That helps me tolerate the heart ache.... If I let myself...I can still feel the tear in my heart over the losses......(especially three- My two cats Cat Tee (20) Kitty Wells(18) and most beloved Mini Schnauzer, Shotzee (13)..... I am so very sorry for your loss......but glad they had YOU....no one would be a better 'mom' to them...

Hi my name is Renee and I just lost my Kitty Cole due to a tumor on his heart.. I had to have him put to sleep just this last monday, It was one of the hardest things ive ever had to do. I miss hiim so so bad. I just wanted to tell everyone that I believe that our pets go to Heaven when we die and we will see them aging. That is the only thing that gets me through this. If we love our pets this much then how much more must a loveing God love them. He made them. Renee

This morning I had to let go of the physical form of my calico cat DJ. I miss her so much already. She would have been 16 yrs. in march. She was so beautiful and so loved. Every night when I went to bed she would jump up and walk around in front of me 2 or 3 times and block the tv, then she'd plop down along my arm and I'd fall asleep with her head resting in my hand. I dread lying down for bed tonight. Having her put to sleep this morning was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. She wasn't herself though and she was having such a hard time breathing. I couldnt stand to see her suffer. I was in the room petting her as she slipped away. I helped deliver her when she was born so I had to be there when she left. Thank you for this site it did help to let those feelings out. I miss you tremendously pretty girl. I love you DJ.

Nell, gone 4 months today still hurting, then my brother died 1 month ago. I, am -------------can't put into words how empty my life is without family.

The horrible emptyness is still with me over the death of Nell. There, are times I call my dog Nell instead of Ginger. Heartache by the dozen.

I, am grieving over Nell and it will soon be 2 months since my loss. Keep thinking I need to check on her close to 2 months and I am still numb. Priscilla

This site has been so helpful to me. I lost my precious best friend and son to me, DannyBoy in February. He was 15. Lately I am having more trouble than usual, crying all of the time; I miss him so much, I just want to die to be with him. I am disabled also and me and my little angel were together all of the time. No one understands my grief, they just keep telling me to get past it and over it. I have no kids, DannyBoy was my kid. SInce I have to live with my parents now due to my disability, they will not allow me to get another companion doggy and my health has gone down the tubes even more since my baby died- not that there would ever, ever be another dog like my Danny-we were soulmates. I am so sad and can't get over it. Please pray for me. Thanks.

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God bless you. We have lost a bunny, Butterfinger, and dog, Reggie. I love the site.

I moved into my duplex about 9 years ago and on my first day here, I noticed a sweet, declawed cat who always hung out on my front porch. I had another cat at the time, so I could never let her in. Until my other cat got sick and we had to put her down. The grey cat outside, who I always called "Jazz" (because she was always dancing outside our door wanting in) just became my new best friend. I had her for at least 8 years, but 3 weeks ago, she went outside and didn't return. I put out fliers everywhere on my street and got the phone call I had always dreaded. Someone had found my cat, but she was dead. By the time the neighbor called me, there was nothing left of her except bones and a little fur all around the bones. I'm completely devastated over this loss. I miss her everyday. We don't even know what happened to her. She was in perfect health and the neighbor who called claimed that when she found her, she didn't look like she had been attacked by another animal or anything. I lost my best friend (human) when I was 18 years old and losing Jazz feels just as bad. (if not worse at times) I thought I was going crazy to be so upset, so it's comforting to know that other people get as connected to their pets as I was. Heartache doesn't even begin to describe my pain. I just miss her so much and feel so lost and alone.

dearest michelle, i know what your going through. i lost my little boy "vega" on june 14th 2008 and my life has been forever changed without him. it has been 9 weeks today and i still miss him more than ever and would give anything to have him back ! i want to let you know it's ok to be sad and cry as much as you need to. we have not just lost our pets but we have lost a member of our family and it is one of the hardest things we will ever have to deal with so please don't stress over how badly you feel right now it's all part of the grieving process. i will tell you that for me personally, i keep a journal and everyday i write down exactly how i'm feeling and let my vega know just how much i miss him and how he is still with me everyday in my heart and memory. i also promise you it will get easier, of course you and your husband will never forget your little one but you need to remember all the good times you had and know that the rainbow bridge is a wonderful place to be and all of our babies will be patiently waiting for us to reunite with them. please know that you and your husband are in my thoughts and prayers and keep coming back to this site to read other peoples stories and to see their tribute pages, it really does help to know that your not alone in your grief. lorrie:) it really will get better

We just lost our sweet Benny Boy, a 15 1/2 golden retriever who brought joy wherever he went. He visited seniors, he went everywhere with me and hiking and camping with my husband. it is a week ago today that benny died in my arms.For Benny ths would be the best palce to go, a proper good-bye, ut me and my husband just can't stop crying. I know that he is in heaven because last Sunday, the morning he went with God, i looked down on the floor at my church and saw an image of Benny wearing a hao, the image was there all through Mass, thinking I may have been hallucinating I went to the 7am Mass on Monday, sat in the same spot and the image was gone but the holy spirit assured me that what i saw the day before was so true, my Benny is with God in heaven, so why can't I stop crying? Why is my husband so sad? This web site is awesome, I'm so gladd I found. it God Bless all the people and thier pet s who are feeling like me today!

Margarita, I can sort of relate to what you are saying, about only seeing "death." A year and a half ago my dog was diagnosed with cancer. Luckily, she has survived, but ever since that time, I am constantly thinking about her death. She is 12 and has other health problems, and I know the day is coming. I wish I could enjoy her life instead of constantly worrying about the day she will die.

I'm lost, terribly hurt devastated. Have lost all faith. Have tons of things in my life to be grateful for but I don't seem to find any meaning.The death of my lovely Berli has triggered all those things lurking in my heart and now I can only see death around me. I cannot even enjoy the compan of all my other human and nonhuman family and friends since I can only envision the moment when they will die and that is sooooo painful. Please help me! Can anyone innoculate faith? I'm truly desperate.

I just wanted to say it has been nice reading the memorials to other pets here, and to know that at least people here dont think it's strange to be upset over an animal dying. I lost my cat Callie recently and found this site while searching around for sites about pets dying.

Joyce, I know what you mean about being around your pet most of the time. I'm not disabled, but between being a police officer and paramedic I have been hurt a couple times and was off work a while. so I was home 99% of the time those days with Callie. I cried a lot the first few days, and still cry sometimes. I know everyone is different, but for me I needed to get a new pet as soon as I could. so as soon as I found a kitten that I fell for, I adopted her. I still miss Callie a lot, but my kitten is a lot of fun. kittens are either sleeping, or they are on the move. she was zooming around the last 3-4 hours or so, and finally crawled up in my lap and was instantly asleep.

What a wonderful site.2 days ago we had to put down my best friend Lil Bit.She had a collapsed trachea,and she was not able to breath very well anymore.She was an amazing friend so much more than a pet.I will miss her more than I ever thought was possible.She was born a Yorkie,but she was all heart.I will miss the way she growled and shook her head as she played with her little stuffed animals.Lil Bit my love When you left us you took part of me with you,I pray you are breathing freely baby.I love you.

I just had to have my sweet little mini dachshund put to sleep2 days ago. He was 2 months shy of his 5th birthday, loved by me, my son, and parents, and my sisters family. I am just heartbroken. I have been disabled, homebound, for 6 years and we spent 99% of our lives together. What am I going to do? I can't stop crying. I miss him so much. Joyce

My grandson NOAH just lost his beloved dog, AURORA and we are all heartbroken. When he got her we were told she had maybe 2 years to live (heart murmur). She was so active, full of life and mischief, she lived about 5 years. NOAH's love and care for her added time to her days. We keep looking for her to come running....miss her terribly. In her honor NOAH is rescuing another dog (in a while) but we will always have AURORA in heaven. NOAH is in middle school in Broomfield.He was a good pal to AURORA.

Sorry to hear of your recent loss. It is difficult beyond words when you lose a precious member of your family. Always keep in mind the wonderful care you gave to her and the great times you spent together,
My condolences,
Eileen

Hi Cheryl,

It is one of the most heartbreaking and hardest things to lose a pet especially one which has become so close with us, I think all you can do is cry at this time and thats perfectly normal, think of the good times and remember that you dont have to suffer alone, that is what this site is for. When you feel ready please sumbit your pet to the site as you will find it can ease the pain like it has me and many others.

x

I am suffering from the recent loss of my best friend and all but choking on my broken heart....this site is a comfort to me ...and I thank you..... Shotzee was a wonderful friend and I miss him terribly....I dont know how to cope....I have lost people that I loved...and now him. The loss of him is as great...and my life has a huge hole in it that only he could fill. When I can tell his story I want to share it with you.... but not tonight. Tonight I can only cry.
Thanks for listening.
Cher

A very beautiful site indeed. May my sympathies go out to all who have lost their beautiful friends. We just lost another dear little one here, a budgie - Littlecloud2 - He was born to one of our female budgies a year and a half ago, he passed away on me very suddenly. We have quite a pet family and love them all, they all mean something special in my life. Thank you for this site.

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No Problem, Yeah sure you can send the story first, if you have any questions about sending pictures just ask :-)

Hi Carl, what a wonderful site, thank you so much for letting us share our thoughts and pictures with each other. And the song is beautiful, brought tears to my eyes. I will be posting my story with Yogi soon, just might take a bit of time to figure how to send a picture, or pictures. Sorry about your loss of Sinbad, I truly know the pain, and the loss of the best thing in life. Can I send a story first and you can reserve a space for me. Thanks.